Dear Mummy

Dear Mummy

You're doing ok, I know it's hard to see at the moment through your tired eyes. 

I'm sorry I start to cry when you lay me down to sleep in the cot or beside you in the carry cot, you see there is one place I like to be and that's in your arms close to your chest where I hear your heartbeat. See I remember it Mummy from when I was is your tummy that's what soothes me Mummy, not the mobile on the cot not the silly songs you sing but being close to you. 

I'm sorry you don't get much housework done, I'm sorry I don't let you have that cup of tea you have been wanting since the morning, I'm sorry I don't give you time to do your hair & make up, but mummy I'm still very small you see. so cherish the moments that I fall asleep in your arms close to your chest as I'm growing day by day mummy, so soon I won't be able to. Dont worry about those things you want to do mummy, I won't remember those. What I will remember though is the comfort of your arms, the closeness of being on your chest and the sound of your Heartbeat, the place I love to be. 

Oh remember mummy you're doing ok! 

Xx 

8 weeks 2 days

3rd March 2015...

I'm currently sat with the baby monitor on next next to me,as she has gone up for her afternoon nap. I can hear the mobile playing and I'm sure I'm going to fall asleep before Hollie does, she hasn't slept since before 7am so is getting a bit cranky.

Hollie doesn't have any set routine as such yet, she like's to have a fair bit of awake time but when she sleeps she tends to sleep did 3ish hours at a time. 

I've started to introduce her going into her cot for her afternoon nap as I found she was relying on sleeping on me and I was unable to get anything done, it takes a little while but sometimes she settles. 

We went along to the local children's center this morning to get Hollie weighed, she is now 9lbs 5oz. So has gained since her last weight check 3 weeks ago. 

We decided to go for a walk this morning to get some fresh air, we ended up going for 40 minutes & it's safe to say I'm unfit! Hopefully once the weather is better we will be able to get out a bit more. 

3 sleeps to go..

31st December 2014.. 

I'm laying in the bath watching my bump moving around, I could watch you for hours knowing that you are safe and warm. 

I'm feeling quite emotional knowing that you will be with us soon, I keep thinking this is all a dream and someone will wake me up. nearly 9 months on and it still doesn't feel real. 

I can't wait to meet you, have you in my arms counting your ten little fingers and toes, finally getting to see who you take after me or your daddy. Your daddy has beautiful Blue eyes where as I have hazel, we both had white blonde hair as babies so we can't wait to see if you follow suit. 

I'm longing to hear you take your first breath and hear the sounds of your cry, but be reassured I will be there to comfort you straight away and wrap you up warm and welcome you into the big wide world. 

2 months old!

How is this even possible? Hollie has changed so much since coming along 2 months ago, my tiny little squishy is becoming a big squishy! Hollie's legs never seem to end.. 

Hollie has started to focus more on things and following them with her eyes. She has also discovered her mouth & hands so has been chomping away on her hand,poking her tongue out & blowing bubbles. We have also noticed how she lives standing in her feet and bouncing off my poor belly, I don't think it will be too long till we will be getting a door bouncer! 

We got Hollie a Tummy Time activity toy, I'm not sure she has quite got the hang of it as she loves kicking her legs and goes flying over it! So we really have to keep an eye on her and hope she gets the idea of it soon. 

We visited Windsor on Saturday, Hollie slept through most of the day and had a little peek at the ducks & swans. 

Hollie has her first set of jabs this week, unsure how I'm feeling about them so may have to get Daddy to do the holding & I can just do the giving lots of hugs after! 

2 sleeps to go...

1st January 2015...

I'm sure you have dropped some more, my pelvis is in bits this morning . I struggled to move around and get up, but looking towards the side of the bed where your Moses basket lays reminds me that it will all be worth it when you are there beside me. 

Last night I kept over thinking things, what if I forget everything I've read or been told and then I got a big kick from you, it was like you were reassuring me "it's ok mummy we can do it together" 

Today we are hoping to finally put up the changing unit that your daddy has been upcycling as its been sanded down and painted white, we are also going to be putting up your name bunting above the cot. Your room is so close to being finished, I can't wait to see you grow with the room and see the changes. 

 

Another catch up post..

Hollie was weighed at 5+1 weighing 8lbs 2oz, her original birth weight was 6lbs 8oz so a good gain. Hollie lost 2% of her birth weight in the first week but gained it back again in a week. 

Week 5 we noticed quite few changes with Hollie such as she was more aware of things around her, she was recogniseing mine and James's voices, Hollie has also started filling out the newborn/first size & up to 1 month clothing she has. Hollie seems to have her daddy's legs that are lovely and long. 

Hollie had started smiling in week 4, but week 5 she has been smiling a lot specially when being spoken to. Also In week 4 we noticed Hollie was coo'ing a lot at night but this has developed more in week 5 and seems to be non stop once she starts. 

And finally her feeds have gone up to 5oz   Every 3ish hours during the day and anywhere between 3/4 5 hours at night. 

So it's safe to say Hollie had a very big leap in week 5. 

We are now on Week 6, I have no idea where the time is going but it's going way too quick for my liking. As much as I love seeing her grow, seeing her developing and changing I already miss the First days, as they are days that go by so fast and in a blur. Savour them days is my advice. keep it just you and your little family soak it all up don't be in a hurry to do things, just sit and stare at your newborn if you can have as many cuddles with them as possible as they change & grow so quick. 

Long over due post..

Hollie Marie Green arrived on Sunday 4th January 2015 at 19:57 weighing 6lb 8oz.. She is perfect in everyway! 

Hollie arrived by c-section in the end, but I will do her Birth story In another post.. 

We stayed in Hospital for 3 nights (including the night of induction) and I couldn't wait to get home and finally be a family of 3. 

The last 4 weeks have been a blur, while James was off work we spent our time adjusting, going out for walks and stoping for a cup of tea also spent pretty much just staring at our beautiful little girl. we also got Hollie registered so was made official.

We were sad to see James go back to work because that meant we had to go back to reality and I had to readjust to doing things on my own during the day, luckily it seems to be going well. 

I'm trying to think how I've felt over the last 4 weeks and the only 3 feelings I can really describe is over whelmed, happy & tired! It's strange as she sleeps a lot but it's because it's not a routine at night and have no idea when she will wake it kind of knocks it out of you a little specially in the first few weeks. 

I hope to update this a little bit more as the days go on and then get back into writing at least one post a week.