Leaving you for the first time 13th August 2016

I had been dreading this weekend for a while, it sounds silly really as I'm sure there will be a time where I won't think twice about it. On Saturday myself and James was invited to a wedding and due to numbers Hollie wasn't invited and that's fine but that meant it would be the first time leaving Hollie with someone that wasn't myself or James for the day. 

Hollie was going to spend the day with my cousin Suzi (Hollie's Aunty Suzi) so I knew she was going to be fine and have a lovely time, I just couldn't get rid of this anxious feeling I think with leaving Hollie and going to a wedding while trying to deal with my social anxiety just put me more on edge. 

The day arrived and Hollie went off with no worries it may have helped that Suzi got Hollie some milky buttons for when they set off, I think I could have done with some too! I felt myself welling up but then remembered that we had ten minutes before we had to go and James wasn't ready so I got my bossy head on and ordered James to sort himself out and that helped with distraction. 

They were times in the day where I would wonder how she was as we didn't have any signal at the venue so wasn't getting messages until a bit later. 

It was a lovely day watching our friends get married with other friends there too. 

We left just after 7pm to go and pick Hollie up from Suzi's I had also started to get a Migraine so was in need of some strong tablets! 

We arrived at Suzi's and Hollie was full of beans and had a lovely day, she had even made herself at home and wanted to show us around Suzi's House. 

Suzi had taken her to The living rainforest, for a walk around her village and they played in the garden. Hollie ate really well and had been bathed and in her Pjs when we arrived. 

Seeing how happy Hollie was has reassured me so much and has made me realised I don't need to worry in future for if we want to leave her with someone for a few hours or the day.